Wednesday, December 30, 2009
2009 is swiftly approaching an end. We are merely hours away from 2010! I can't believe it's already 2010! That whole saying time flies the older you get, yikes! Well, it's true! This year has completely passed me by! I look back and see the things that happened that were great and I also see things that I want to improve, things I want to reach higher for and things to let go of.
I was thinking what happened this past year? There was good like Joey and I buying our very first house as husband and wife! We love our little house and know that it will hold many memories for us, just like it already has! Then there were the many blessings like Joey's job, creating new friends, becoming more of the woman God has called me to be. (This is a never ending process by the way-still becoming.)
There were some scary moments too. Like when my mom had to have a biopsy done on one of her breasts. This scared the patooey out of me. The thought of both of my parents not being here, was awful. God gave me piece during that time, like he always does, and it came back benign. Thank you Jesus.
For this year I have many hopes! I don't want to accomplish anything great per say. I just want to become more of a "fuller me". I don't know if that makes sense. I want to know God more. I want to pray more. I want to love my husband better. I want to see God all around me, not just in church. I want to experience Him fully. I don't want to miss out on anything He is doing. I want to hear Him more. Feel Him more. I want to know that exactly what I am doing is exactly where and what He wants me to be doing! I want to be completely and utterly filled with Him and nothing more! I have this desire that is screaming out at me! Life is so much more than resolutions and goals! I feel like God wants me to live life "Simply." We don't need to accomplish anything great. He wants to take our everyday lives, use them to Glorify Him, and in return we are made complete. Full of joy, contentment...happiness. I want more of this. I desire with all of me, this.
This past year I also turned 25. In less than a month I will be 26! Twenty five was really hard for me! Just that realization that I'm not the "young" one anymore. I know some can relate! My husband and I have been married for almost 4 years. Children have been on my mind and my husbands mind lately. No I'm not pregnant. The thought about knocks me off my feet, quite frankly! I want to have kids one day. I know that I am not getting any younger! Ha! Seriously though. Of course I ooh and goo over sweet little babies and want to kiss their little wittle cheeks! But, having a kid is huuuggee! It's not something I just go "ok, lets go honey!" I am completely aware of all that it entails! It frieghtens me to no end, to know that I would be responsible for a little person, and no I can't give it back to it's mother! Oh, me! Oh my! I have talked to many people about my fears, mainly my husband. Maybe it's fears, maybe it's selfishness. I am still trying to work through all of these feelings. I know God wants to bring us out of our comfort zones, this would be way out! So we will see! Maybe this time next year I will look back on this post and laugh about how naive I was. I know that god will give me peace about all of it, when it's time. Until then I wait patiently...hoping that I get that dose of peace soon! =)
Wednesday, December 16, 2009
Wednesday, December 9, 2009
Last night Danny C. won! I so wanted him to. The new healthy Danny looks just like my dad did in his younger years...eerily alike! That probably had something to do with why I wanted him to win! As they weighed him and the confetti fell over him, I was screaming, balling and hitting Joey (I tend to hit whoever or whatever is around me when I get excited! He he) I was just so excited!! I am so happy for him and he looked great!!
Saturday, November 28, 2009
I love this time of year, oh so much! The smells, the decorations, the music! I am a fan of Christmas music! I have so many sweet memories of decorating the tree as a kid, or singing in the car with my sister. All of those memories are such tiny pieces that I hold dear, each and every Christmas! I so look forward to creating those precious memories one day with our own children! This is my favorite time of year!
Monday, November 23, 2009
On a more serious note, this holiday has completely changed for me as I have gotten older and errr..mature! Eeek! Growing up I never really took it to heart. But as I sit and truly think about how extremely blessed I feel and am, I can't help but be thankful!
The other night I was lying in bed, and talking my husbands ear off, as usual, as he drifts in and out of snors. Poor guy! I layed there so warm and cozy in my oh so soft sheets and thought...Thank you God. Thank you for this bed!! How often I take something that seems so expected and basic for granted. Thank you for our house-shelter! Thank you God for my husband! He was and is the sweetest blessing by far! Even this blessing I tend to take for granted at times.
I am blessed more than I know or deserve. I am also so thankful for a loving God, who gives a new strength and an abundance of grace each and everyday! This scripture stuck out to me the other day: It's in Isaiah 38:17 " God's love has delivered my soul from the pit and He has cast all of my sins behind His back!" I am so in love with this! God has totally taken all of the way I used to live, think, act and speak and thrown it over his shoulder! In His eyes, none of that no longer exists. Thank goodness.
These are just a few of the things that I am thankful for! I want to work on this mindset to continue year round, not just around a holiday. Don't you?
Happy Thanksgiving! I am so thankful for family and friends...and all of the yummy food!
Sunday, November 8, 2009
Saturday, October 24, 2009
The weather was crisp and autumn like. It couldn't have been a better day. Here is the man that I love now more than I did the day that I married him!
That's all, happy week all!
Friday, October 2, 2009
On another note, we have been in our house for about 6 months. I have been so excited about finally decorating a space that has the space to decorate. We lived in apartments before, so that was sort of challenging. But, now I can! I want to make our house look more "fally." He he, is that even a word? Anywho, I have done a couple things so far, but am looking for some budget friendly things as well. I love reading everybody's blogs, so inspiring and everyone has such good ideas!
This wreath I made for really cheap, everything is from my fave Hobby Lobby!
So, not much. But still a work in progress! I still have time, it's just now October! ;)
Also I recieved my new David Crowder Cd Yesterday!! I won it from Kellys Korner . Thank you to Kelly for giving this goodie away! Seriously, EVERYONE should go run out and get a copy, it really is soo good! Not to mention it's a really great work out Cd!
Tuesday, September 29, 2009
Wednesday, September 23, 2009
Maggie has grown so much since we got her! She already weighs 30 pounds! Oh Lord help me, she is only 6 months! Back a few months ago when I was trying to convince my husband to get a dog, I was looking for a Shih-Tzu. Yeah, I know your laughing! What did I end up with- a German Shepherd Grey eyed cutie! Compleeeetely different! She was just so sweet and pretty. Now I wouldn't change anything! Puppies are a lot of work but a lot of fun too! Here are some sweet pics of my Maggie Moo!
Here she is today! So sweet!
This is what I get when I tell her something she doesn't want to hear! Such Attitude!
Tuesday, September 15, 2009
I was left back to square one. Not sure where to go next. I am a girl who relies on a strength that is higher than me. The only place that I knew, the only one that I knew would give me the strength and ability to help me conquer this area in my life was the Lord. I began asking God to Please, Pleeeaaase help me. You know what? He always helps. He did! For me! Little or well Chubby me! He gave me an understanding about food, and the ability to look to the future of what life would be like if I just put my feet down and said no to the Sugar!
That was what I had to do! Anything sweet was my weakness! (Still is!) My new life of food was full of Organics, God-made products! No processed stuff. Only all natural, whole grain, I also omitted anything white from my diet. I soon got the eating down, which was not easy I might add. At least not for me. I thoroughly enjoy food and I am not about to act like I am not! I then drove my happy self to Wally World and bought close to the cheapest treadmill I could get my hands on. Not the self propelled kind without a motor. I knew that if I got on it, I would have just stood there! I needed to be moved by a you better start walking or you go flying treadmill! I did this EVERYDAY, for at least thirty minutes. Not sure why but I committed myself to that. I wanted to see change. This in my mind was the quickest way. I started to see results! Big results! This was so unlike me! I had never, ever lost weight before. I forgot to mention that I started this diet, right about this time of year actually. It was nearing close to the holiday season, but I had reached my point of now! I didn't want to put my happiness on hold anymore.
By my 21st birthday in January I had lost probably between 20-30 pounds. Eventually after a lot of hard work right before my wedding day I had lost close to 60 pounds! I have kept it off for about four years now. Unfortunately I don't have a skinny gene, so it is a constant battle. I had and continue to have to change my mind set. I love eating healthy and finding healthy alternatives. In all honesty I still probably should lose another twenty. I tend to get down on myself and start to look at my body and criticize. Staying as focused as I once was doesn't come as easy as it did back then. I like to pull out my old pictures and remind myself of how far I have come. I have kept it off for four years! That was with a new marriage and all! If you knew my husband you would think that this is a miracle. He was your portrait of a horrible college boy eater when I met him. I'd like to think that him marrying me was the best thing for him. (Hehe) Now he likes to eat healthy and is so supportive! I must admit, we LOVE mexican food. In our first year of marriage I gained 10 pounds back. I've lost those thank goodness!
I wanted to share for those out there who are struggling just like me, like I always have. It isn't about going on a "Diet." It is about a life style change, a change in your mind. Relying on a strength that we don't create. Only God can give us. Don't believe me that God can't help you lose weight? Give Him the opportunity, and see what He is capable of! Many people out there can discipline themselves to eat right and excercise, and have awesome success stories. I needed the Lord's help because I couldn't do it on my own. We are all beautiful in God's eyes, but I wanted to make this body, this temple, a healthy one!
I am so excited that the Biggest Loser is back on for another season! Aren't you? Time to be motivated! I will try to ignore the corny advertising and be motivated! For me that is what this show is about! I also will try to get some before/after pics up. It's hard finding ones, when you tried to avoid the camera! Isn't that awful!
Saturday, August 29, 2009
For dinner we went to Chili's, which is never a let down! I will leave you with a picture of what we had for dessert! The Molten Chocolate Cake-sooo good! I should have taken a picture of what it looked like after, but I am pretty sure you would know what that would look like!
Friday, August 28, 2009
Monday, August 17, 2009
My husband and I love our home church and are pretty involved. I help sing on the worship team along with my husband being one of the musicians. I also help lead children's worship and this Sunday was my turn! It went great! I love seeing kids getting pumped and excited all while worshiping God! I love seeing kids receiving the chance to be introduced to Jesus at such a young age. I grew up in a little Baptist church, but there were like two kids my age, so needless to say, there weren't camps and really successful Sunday schools or anything. Still, I am so thankful for my mom for taking me to church every Sunday, even if my sister and I would end up having laughing fests the entire time!
So far today I have been somewhat productive! I took Joey to an eye appointment. Now I am about to go meet a friend for lunch, then come home and catch up on some laundry! I need to enjoy the free time while I can! School starts next week so work will begin again! Ahh, the world of Substituting! Have a Marvelous Monday!
Friday, August 14, 2009
So, needless to say I am back at it! Maybe I should just sip someone elses tonight! Ha! I will have to let you know how it goes and if I come home with anything! Hope everyone has a great day!