A letter to him...

Dear Sweet Boy,

I woke up with one of the greatest and sweetest blessings, the morning I discovered you were already inside of me. I will never forget that feeling. I will never forget the look on your daddy's face, as I walked out of the bedroom and told him. He was overjoyed! I couldn't believe that it was actually happening. I had imagined and thought about us having a baby and always got excited. Now? It was here! God had already began to create you inside of me! I was amazed, yet, scared that I would be a good mommy to you or not. Could I love you in the way that you deserved to be loved? Could I guide you and teach you in a way that would help you to grow and mature? Oh, how I pray that I can.

I loved you at the mere thought of you but, fell head over heals in love with you, in the moment I first saw you. Shaped like a little bean on the ultrasound screen, there you were. I could already imagine your little face and hands in my mind, and I loved them. I kept looking in awe at you. Then I saw your heart beating! There it was, beating so fast! Life was in you. You in me. Amazing.

One of my favorite things so far is how close we are. One day, I will share you with many. But for now, you are mine. I love this. I get to feel you. Daddy does too. :) But, I know when you're awake. Which is usually when I am sleeping! Or at least trying to sleep. I think I have even felt you have the hiccups a couple of times! You're always with me. I love it! Before you were with me, you were with God. You still are. He is forming your in most detail. He knows you so much better than me. He always will. He has already placed so many great things in you. The most important, His love for you. One day soon you will even feel it! This is one of the most special things about you. I can't wait for that day! What a great, sweet day that will be. I already feel as though God has some great things he wants you to do for Him! When I pray for you, I see glimpses sometimes of the way God might use you and it excites me so!

In just a few short months, I get to see your sweet face! I get to hold your tiny hands, kiss your sweet cheeks and smell your sweet baby smell. I am so looking forward to that moment when you look at me for your first time! We get to see each other, finally! But, don't be in too much of a hurry! You still have some growing to do mister! ;)

You are our first baby. You are special. Please always know that from the moment we knew about you and from the moment that we get to meet you, you have been loved. You are loved. You were wanted. You put a new happiness within your mommy and daddy, that we didn't know existed. Our sweet boy, we love you.

Love,
Your Momma

Time flies...

when you're having a baby! Seriously, time has just gone by so fast with the holidays and such. I have sat down to update many times, left completely blank. Not sure where to start. Then I would get side tracked, see someone elses post and loose myself in their world. Sad, but true!

So here is what has been happening in our house hold as of lately...

We celebrated Christmas of course! We got the best Christmas present this year and found out, our little blessing is a BOY!! I had a feeling it was. The hubs was so excited! Everything looked great and I must say he is the cutest little boy already if you ask me!

The little guy has been moving and kicking up a storm! He is usually really active during or while I am eating or snacking on anything. My favorite is at night. Every night I lie in bed and I can feel him repositioning himself, and see him go crazy! The hubby can see my tummy jump and jive too, which is sweet. He however, is still stunned every time he sees it, ha! He has gotten better though and realizes it's his son and not an alien.

We have been busy getting things done around our house lately. I LOVE updating things around the house. Painting. Decorating. Getting new light fixtures. You name, I love it! We recently redid our guest bath, to make it a tad more kid friendly and definitely more bright and airy! The hubs put up Wainscoting, which looks soo good! I textured and repainted the walls. We put in a new fixtures too! It might be my favorite room in the house now, ha! As soon as I get some more minor details done, I will get some pictures up. :)

We also have been working on the little guys room. I am in love with his room, and we haven't even done that much to it yet. It is seriously the most peaceful room in our house! We got his furniture in before Christmas. His crib and dresser/changing table. I got the.best.deal.ever. at Lowes a couple of weeks ago. They had rugs on sale and I got a big area rug in chocolate brown for 10 bucks!! I knew I wanted an area rug for his room and was so excited when I stumbled upon this one!

We also bought a book shelf for his room at Ikea. We went ahead and purchased his bedding because it was killing me. It's virtuously impossible to decorate for me without one of the most important pieces. So, we got it and I love it! His room is going to be preppy with a modern twist. I am not really into themes, like animals so we found something we both agreed on. I am even trying my hand at making some art for his walls. We shall see how it turns out! His room looks so boyish already and I love it! Pictures will follow once it is complete. :)

I am entering in my 25th week tomorrow! We had an appointment today and my doc, who I love, said to come back in two weeks for my glucose test and we will start seeing her every two weeks from now on. Say what?! Already!

I also...will be turning 27 this month! I seriously feel like I should still be in my early twenties. Can't believe I am on the downward slope now to thirty. Well, technically I already have been. Anywho...yeah. 27. Feels strange.Weird. But, I am ok with it. :)

So that is what has been happening around these parts. Just being thankful for this sweet season of life. Taking it all in. Remembering and giving praise to the one who is responsible for all of these blessings. :)

Crazy hunger dreams...

Never in my life, have I ever dreamt about food. Until about oh...five months ago. Since I was newly pregnant, I started having weird dreams occurring all around food! Ha! I don't really even wake up hungry, but have in the middle of the night. Which I always ignore (except that one time!)

I can't remember all of them. Usually I am very perturbed during the dream, because I can't get my food the way I want it. One was where I was standing in line at a Whataburger trying to order a burger. Which I am not a typical fast food burger eater. Unless it's Sonic. I don't know what it is about that place, but I love them. In my dream I remember getting mad, because they couldn't get my order right- go figure.

Last night was by far the weirdest. I woke up around 4am and just tossed and turned drifting on and off dreaming until this morning. But, seriously I dreamt about... get ready for it...cake batter. Yep, that is right. I wanted nothing but cake batter in my dream and was thoroughly enjoying myself. Hahaha! Weird right?

Not the most interesting post, but worthy for posting in my eyes so I don't forget the randomness of this pregnancy!

Reality check...

I was watching my adorable, squishy sweet nephew the other day for my sister when she took one of her daughters to the doctors. He is 5 months and seriously makes me not mind having a boy if we do. So sweet.

This wasn't the first time I have watched him for her. Or any baby for that matter. But, this time around, I had a BIG reality check. Or, I guess you could say, all of my insecurities about being a mom were raised to an all time high.

You see, I have always known that I wanted to be a mommy one day. The thought, has always excited me. I was never however, one of those girls who just- "wanted a baby." I am a girly girl, who yes, gets excited about decorating the baby's nursery, and can't wait to hold to my baby, and squeals with delight at teeny tiny outfits. But, I have always also known that a baby meant BIG things! Responsibilities. Selflessness. Guidance. Not just sweet smells and cute outfits. Those are all pluses by far, but there is so much more. More than I even know.

So, here I am with little Daven. He had just woken up from a nap, and was full of smiles. Amazed with Maggie, wondering what the heck she was. Maggie wanting SOO badly to see him up close, and give him her claustrophobic kisses. We played and giggled. He reached for my face and grabbed anything he could touch. Including my earrings! Ouch! (Note to self: NEVER wear big earrings with baby near! And always pull your hair completely back! ha!)

We played for what felt like a long time. Really, it had only been twenty minutes! Say, what? We were at my house, which has nothing for a young baby to really play with as of yet. No jumperoo, or bumbo chair, baby einstein..nothing. Needless to say, we were each others entertainment. I layed him on the floor with a few toys and he was thoroughly enjoying himself, while I was wrapping some Christmas gifts. I felt so proud of the multi-tasking that was taking place! 

Then it hit me. I am not talking to him. He needs to be talked to. Like, now. Babies need to hear conversation. They need interaction! I could be messing up his developing motor skills!! Should I be doing some sort of baby exercises?! How do moms entertain their babies all day? How do you get them on schedules? As you can see, all of these thoughts came rushing in. So, I did what any normal person would do...carried on a conversation with a 5 month old! Hey, he needed to hear something! We even danced to Christmas music! ha!

Oh my, I know that I looked ridiculous. But it just made me think. My husband and I are having a baby! A child! Someone who will need to be raised with good morals and manners and you name it. Talk about reality. Not that I didn't already know this. But, now it is really happening! I know I am not the only new mom to be out there who has had these freak out moments! I guess it's just part of the process.

There will definitely be many prayers said, cried and repeated. With all of this, I am so thankful to be able to experience such a blessing. I know that God will show me the way. I am sure that I will make some mistakes, but one thing is for sure, this kid will be loved to the extent that I didn't even know was possible. :)

If you actually read this..bless you. :)

Almost half way there...

to 20 weeks pregnant that is! I'll be 19 weeks tomorrow! Can I hear a Wa-hoo?! It has gone by sort of fast. I have heard once you make it to twenty, time flies, so we will see. Although I have taken belly pictures for my own memory sake, I will spare the good ole' blog from those. ;) Not sure if I want my belly on the web.

I think I am actually starting to show some baby roundness. Finally! Instead of looking like I enjoyed Thanksgiving a little too much. ha!

We have exactly 10 days until we find out what the little one is! I cannot wait! Many are saying girl. I have not a clue as to what we are having. I once had a dream that it was a boy, so I am kind of leaning towards that. But, totally really don't know. I am just looking forward to getting some new pics of the little one, and making sure its growing and healthy!

Funny thing...At our last doctors appt, we got to listen to the babes heart beat and the baby was moving and kicking up a storm, which made me start laughing. I was just so happy to hear it and all. It was kind of embarrassing, because there I was laying on the bed with my pants pulled down, belly to the world..me laughing. Lets just say.. with a new big belly and laughing, it felt awkward! Ha! Then I thought, "Oh, man is this how it is going to be every time??!! I hear the heart beat or see it on the screen and then start laughing out of pure giddiness? Funny sight for sure!

I am super excited to see him or her next week! Then I can FINALLY start thinking about nursery colors. I was considering doing neutrals and a very calm, serene room, but I would love to do some color so we will have to wait and see! Baby C needs to cooperate for their momma! Or not. I won't be mad. ;)

I am Thankful for...

the internet, for without, I would seriously need to find new entertainment.heh, we all would..sad but, oh so very true.

friends who make me laugh.

my husband playing his piano when he is trying to unwind. I get the benefits of listening.love.

Salted Caramel Hot chocolates from Starbucks..mmm. warm goodness in a cup.

Quiznos and their tuna sandwiches. Seriously so good. I can only have them once a week. boo.

my Maggie for being so excited everytime she sees me.

my sister. I love her company.

our christmas tree being up.it makes our house feel so cozy. love christmas!

that Thanksgiving is this weekend and that means punkin' pie! just realized a lot of these are food. so sad.

for the way that God is faithful in all things.

last but not least...for hearing our baby's heartbeat today. little bean was kicking up a storm. totally cute.favorite part of my day by far.

In everything..

God is there. He is truly everywhere. His beauty in everything. I love that even while driving in my car just as the sun is going down, He shows me the all of the beauty that He holds in  His hands through the colors in the sky.

I love that I can see His beauty when the cold air (Yay to the Yay!) hits me in my face and I am reminded that just as quick as the coldness is quick to greet me, so is He. Right when I call on Him. His love never fails me. His presence is always near me.

God is here as I am listening to my husband play the piano. Even in simple moments like these. I am reminded just how near He is.

God is in our troubles. He already knows what we are going through. When we ask, He takes them away. Not always at the exact moment we want Him to, but in His perfect time. When He does, all Glory goes right back to Him. Where it belongs.

Psalm 46: " God is our refuge and strength, a very  present help in trouble.  Therefore we will not fear though the earth gives way, though the mountains be moved into the heart of the sea, though its waters roar and foam,
though the mountains tremble at its swelling. There is a river whose streams make glad  the city of God, the holy habitation of the Most High. God is in the midst of her; she shall not be moved; God will help her when morning dawns.
The nations rage, the kingdoms totter; he utters his voice, the earth melts. The Lord of hosts is with us;
the God of Jacob is our fortress.  Come, behold the works of the Lord, how he has brought desolations on the earth.
He makes wars cease to the end of the earth; he breaks the bow and shatters the spear; he burns the chariots with fire.
“Be still, and know that I am God. I will be exalted among the nations, I will be exalted in the earth!”
 The Lord of hosts is with us; the God of Jacob is our fortress."